Iced heart... Numb & cold...

I feel extremely cold from the bottom of my heart... Hope that it jus gets frozen then I won't feel anything anymore... Perhaps I'm jus too confident in my partner thought he would know how I feel... Think it's jus my wishful thinking... I thought that intimate actions are naturally from our heart but it seems to be a request... I dunno wat to do anymore... Perhaps I'll shall continue my ignorance ba... Think that's all I can do ba... My words are jus passerbys I guess...

How I wish I'm on his auto-list and not request-list... Perhaps I'm not as good as those known for few hours I guess... Since intimate things still need request then perhaps those things can don't do le...

4 month loh~~

Hello !!! Surprised ? Ahaha.. Now boss not around use this time to blog... Hehe.. Yeah.. Finally working loh.. Helping my aunt sub 1st.. Hmm.. When she come and take over then see how bah..

Hehe.. Teddy !!! Hope u enjoyed ytd oh.. Our little advanced celebration for 4th month bah.. Hehe..

Hmm.. Haha.. Dont really know what to blog le wor.. Lol.. Teddy u jia you in studies bah.. Lol.. I know not easy but its the path u choose so jia you wor.. Work towards our dream house 1 day.. Ahaha..

Oh ya.. Teddy ar.. Lets say if u going to late hor.. Dont ever tell is because u slping.. Lol.. Dunno y late because of slp make me emotional.. Haha.. So lie to me bah.. Lol..

Think i stop here bah.. Hehe.. I Love You, Teddy. Muack muack muack..

Updates!!!

So long never blog le... Time for some updates... Hehe...

Theodore got a job in his area already!!! Yeah... 加油wor!!! Ur teddy supports u always... Hehe...

I'm studying in UniSIM le... Difficult though for certain modules... Didn't really do well for the 1st tests... Need to buck up le... AHHHH!!!

Theodore is as 体贴 as always... Muack muack muack... Teddy loves Theodore!!! Got a shirt for both of us... It's the same design de... Same size too... Slim down more would look nicer in the clothes... Hehe...

3 more days gonna be 4 months le... Hehe... We haven't really celebrated it for the past 3 months... Felt so 对不起 to my theodore... But i'm really happy to be around him... The thought of him already brings happiness to my heart...

Need to improve on my cooking skills... All my cookings are a bit 偏甜... :p

Will try something new... Hehe... Since Theodore ask me to make, I'll try my best in doing it... Hehe... Will Post the pictures of my cooking when i got the camera back... Hope I can make it before the day... Gotta look for items le... Hehe...

Shall end here for now... Wish that theodore would post something too if he has the time... Hehe...

This week activities...

This week, Theodore has been coming my house almost everyday!!! Yeah... Hee... We get to hug each other & kiss, & also sleep & eat together... We view YOG together on my bed seeing all the XSGs (Xiao Shuai Ge)... We also got to bathe together in the shower room where i help my Theodore wash his hair & body... :p Hee...

Sorry Theodore about yesterday... I didn't know my dad didn't went for work yesterday... Lucky he was out early in the morning to see doctor for cough medicine & get MC, if not he'd saw us hugging & kissing... Whew... A close call... Made u felt bored the whole day when u're @ my house... But when I locked the door of my bed room after we return home from shopping, u began to become cheeky... Hee... Naughty Theodore~

I'm gonna start school next tuesday... Hope my Theodore finds a job by then... Hee... 22days to 2months... Hee...

Muacks Theodore... Love ya... Hee...

1 month !!

Wow.. Times flies by quite fast wor. Today marks the first 1 month that we spend together. Although there wasn't any kind of celebration, we know we are still in each other hearts.

Even when we go out together we don't go to expensive places to fill our stomach. Just the simple 'able to spend time with each other' is enough for us. But of course there are times when we need a hug or kiss. So we will take the risk and go to one toilet and wait for the right moment so that we can hug and kiss. Haha.

Haha. Of course, sunday is actually a day where we go to keybox. For what i think you guys should know bah. Haha. That place is kinda cozy, steam room is good. Haha, can let some sweat out other than the other way which is bed exercise. Haha.

Ok. Happy 1 month anniversary to both of us Teddy !! Hehe. May we walk together till the end of time. Hehe ^^ Hmm.. I'm always happy I'm together with my Teddy. Hehe.

Teddy~ Teddy~ I Love You !!! MUACK MUACK MUACK.. Hehe..

Theodore~~

Confusion

Haha.. Seems that my readers are getting confused with who i really am. So here is an entry to clarify myself. Haha.

I'm Theodore aka werdna aka andrew and im bf is teddy aka alec loh. Hehe. Hope this will clear the confusion. So from now on i will use theodore in every chat box. Cheers ^^

Theodore~~

24hrs with Theodore!!!

I got to spent a full day with Theodore from National Day Eve to National Day!!! Spent the whole 24hrs with my Theodore @ bugis area... Hee... From lunch to dinner to night shopping to sleep... Hee... Theodore seems happy & enjoying it... Hope we can spend more time in the future when I start my course in UniSim Global... Haha... Hope Theodore likes the things I bought... Hee...

Hope Theodore finds a job soon so that he can start to gain work experience to find better job or career advancement through further education... Hee... Then we can earn income for our comfy house... 加油!!! Hope I can finish my course & find a job during 2nd year... Then I can start saving money & gain job experience...

Hope Theodore have a good night sleep tonight cos yesterday night u can't sleep well bcos of the noises...

Lastly...
Theodore~ Theodore~ I love U!!! MUACK........ Hee...

Teddy~~

Hee... Some instincts that came to me naturally to uncover my theodore's ex

Yo, this is Teddy here... This post would be my story on how I know my theodore's ex is...

It began after my break up with my ex which became theodore's partner during his 1st r/s... My ex began asking me about theodore's things & how I know Theodore as friend after I broke up with him for around 2 months... That's when I suspected Theodore would be his next target for his next r/s... Cos no one would ask so much about a person he don't know as a friend personally yet... Especially AJ... Unless the person likes him... That's my theory... Haha...

After that I got ro know my ex is attached & theodore is also attached... My suspicion began to increase to 20%... A few months after that I notice my ex's partner began posting on my ex blog... Then a few days after that, there's a comment in the shout box that writes how come no one writes anything there, is there any one reading the blog... That's when my my suspicion increase to 40%... Cos I know no one would post comments in his blog bcos all would only read... So the one who would ask such question would only be the blogger of the post... Which is theodore!!! Wahaha... Then I notice the Nick of this person who made that comment... The Nick seems very familiar... I've seen it somewhere...

So I began my search for the nick's owner... Eventually I found this nick's owner in a facebook game Nick... Exactly the same... & it proves that my suspicion is correct... Cos the Nick belongs to Theodore's game Nick... Wahaha... Thus my suspicion became 70% confirmed le...

After that, there's a reunion gathering for my BMT mates ORD!!! Theodore was also there... Then when it's about time to go home, Theodore did not go home... Instead he says he's going a friend's house... Who would go friend's house @ such a time during the nite... Think also know la!!! AJ going someone's house at such late hour still or who's house? Of cos bf la... Then he says the area he's going to in the taxi, which appeared to be my ex de house area... Thus, I was 90% sure... Haha...

Although both didn't wanna admit but I reckon they're together... The next morning I asked Theodore wat time he left, I confirmed their r/s when he told me the timing... Cos it's the same time I meet his ex... Which eventually I got to know something wrong in his r/s...

From that day on, we became more open to each other then slowly began our r/s... Haha...

Eh... Our current r/s is sort of brought together by our ex (same person that is to say) due to his stupid wrong doings... A big change in his character from my time with him to his time with Theodore... Complete different person... Or maybe it's the same jus that I know... Haha... Since I'm with Theodore, I'll spend happy times with him... Hee... Hope I didn't reveal too much thing here cos our ex seems to be viewing this blog too... Haha...

I'm with theodore now in orchard to walk walk shop shop... Shopping for a disc that has the singer he likes... Tae Yang!!! Haha...

teddy~~

How we met

Ok. As requested by my fans. hehe. Today this post will be about how we two met each other. Those that don't like it, can don't read. Oh. It will be a long post. Bewarned !!

It all began on 12 June 2008, our enlistment day. Haha. So coincidence ? Yes, indeed. But nothing happen during that time. At first we didn't know each other was aj or bi. Haha. Can you imagine if we know about each other ? I think it will be a hell of fun and kinkiness. Haha. Hmm. Fun in camp, tekong some more. Haha.

About 2 months into my BMT i got OOC. Any idea why ? I'll tell guys. Haha. Because of attendance. Haha. I was having fever so no reason. LOL. minimum 37.6. So sit down by the side and do nothing one. Haha. Hmm. Don't know what my teddy think during that time. Hehe. Until one time my PS say want to talk to me, about OOC me. Hmm. Abit out of point le.

Ok. After Teddy POP, i still didn't know that he was aj leh. Until i found a friend's profile on trevvy with Teddy as Buddy. Haha. Now that friend become quite a good friend of me le. Haha. Talks about almost anything.

So through Teddy profile, i kinda talks to him about it. Haha. Then i know got people wooing him wor. Anyway still nothing happen between us. Haha. Until after 11 June 2010, yes ! 2 years after enlisted meaning ORD loh !! Haha. A few of us closer one went out together. That time i got a bf le, almost 1 year le bah.

After our meet up, i was going to my ex home then was on the same way with Teddy. Hehe. He smart wor, then he realized that my ex was his ex. Haha. Ok. Now is the sad or anger part. My was cheating on me and got caught by me. Haiz. So sad and angry loh, i always have been true to him but he do this to me. And it wasn't the first time le. Now even got witness.

So i decide to break loh. But very sad, went out with teddy and that good friend to vivo, good friend wanna shop. Haha. Then after i totally break with my ex le, knights in shinning armour come sia. That is teddy. Haha. He was there for me when I'm sad loh.

And then i went to his house one day, haha. R21 le. Kinda started dating bah. Then i know that teddy was having a crush on me since BMT when he saw me but he didn't know that I'm bend so didn't make a move. Haha. He even invite me to go his house through his window and sleep overnight. Haha. Cuz he wanna hug me to sleep. So sweet of him to risk this kind of things. Haha.

Ya. When his house cannot go and do R21 so we went for alternative loh. Cuz my house 24/7 cannot de, sure got people de. Haha. We went to keybox, haha. Cheap, cosy, small and friendly. That is where we will usually go when there is no place to go, so we can hug and kiss there. Haha. R21 or not, depends bah. Hehe. Until 11 July 2010, we officially become bfs loh.

So here is how we met bah. Hehe. If i miss out anything please tell me oh, teddy !! Hehe. Theodore Love Teddy~~ Muacks~~

Theodore~~

For my Theodore...

This is my 1st post here for my Theodore... Hee... It's been 11 days since we're tgt... Hee... U've been very nice, clever & naughty at times... I love the way u are... Probably bcos we have similar character tat's y we're happy most of the times... Sorry if I look like I'm thinking of something but I'm actually day dreaming, looking at air... Hee... I dun have the word angry in my dictionary cos my philosophy is that as long as I'm still living, I would live it happily everyday with a smile no matter when... Hee... I rather happily 度过每一天... I hope my Theodore also behaves the same way as me to happily go through everyday cos there's no end to worries... Hee... I hope my Theodore can find the job of his dream & passion so that he can work happily & enjoy his work... Hee... Love ya forever, Theodore... 

Teddy~~

For Teddy

Alright. This post is for my teddy !! hehe. Probably sleeping now i think. Thank you for being there for me when i was feeling down and when im at my weakest state. Thank for helping me walk out from my last failed relationship. hmm. By the way today will be our 12 days into our relationship. hehe.

I dont know but i got a feeling that this relationship might be our last one ? hehe, its an interesting way for us to start this relationship. hehe. Those that wants to know can ask either of us or can request for special blog entry for it. hehe ^^

Sorry that there are times that i will make you sad and sorry i got itchy hand. =x think only you can accept my this kind of behavior and action bah. And i confessed i like to look at meat and touch those guys at keybox. So my teddy dont jealous ok ? hehe

Teddy you really treat me very well, hehe, i love you *shy* You care for me when im not feeling well, even wanted to come visit me, thats was so sweet of you. Even when you got work you still managed to find time for me. You planned your future with me inside. hehe. Together we live in the same house.

When you heard about my family, you also showed that you are really concern about me. You want to help me get out of my misery and of course you are there to stop me from thinking about those evil thoughts. Making me happy even when its just meeting you.

Ok, lastly i want to say this again. I Love You Teddy !!! Muack Muack Muack. hehe.

Theodore~~

1st Entry

Hey Guys !! this is the 1st entry of our blog.. hehe.. trying to make it more unique and nice.. wait for it.. haha..

Theodore~~